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03 mayo

awfe

in this ever changing world
everything comes to an end
yet i dream to have an eternal light
that burns endlessly bright
 
it would guide me through the blindness
in this maze of darkness
it would keep me from all the madness
in this world of insanity
it would bring me calmness
in this tempestuous universe
 
03 marzo

what trust is

"how do you know you can trust me"
 
"i don't, that's what trust is"
24 enero

kill all my demons, and my angels might die too

the title comes from the movie "transsiberian"
the original quote is from tennessee williams
"if i got rid of my demons, i'd lose my angels"
everyone can interpret it in a different way
not necessarily how williams meant it

good and evil
angels and demons
love and hate
most things come in a pairs

good is good because evil exists
angels are loved because people fear demons
without hate love can not be felt
it is intended this way
so we can tell the difference between two opposite sides
then we'd appreciate the good ones more

it is death we fear
so we treat our bodies right to postpone it
it is love we need
so we treat others right hoping they'd love us back

however
since it's almost inevitable that things do exist in pairs
we should learn to accept the other side

so
when you are hated
be patient and seek to make amends
when poverty strikes
be hopeful and seize every single opportunity
and when death finally finds you
be grateful that you can rest
19 enero

it is ....

it is an action
when you buy someone flowers

it is an thought
when you keep thinking of someone

it is an feeling
when it is not your mind but the heart that is affected

it is hunger
because some words need to be fed again and again

it is greed
because some thing you just want it more and more

it is hatred
when there's so much of it that you can't let go

it is selfishness
when a there's a certain someone you wanna keep to just yourself

it is sacrifice
when you put someone else's life before yours

it is lust
when it's the body you desire

.....
.....
.....

it is everything
yet it is nothing

it is the one thing people never truly understand
it is ....

16 enero

fake sonnet

i'm drowning in this lonesome well
water rush into my mouth
my body begins to swell
my lung gives out my last breath
 
i took the pill of damnation
as it disolved in my body
i walked the road to perdition
at the end, it's all bloody
 
standing at the bottom of the abyss
i look up to the sky
struggling to get back to the surface
yet all i can do is sigh
 
when life is no longer life
in devil's eyes i see myself
08 enero

my heart beats too loud

my heart beats so loud
it wakes me up at night
 
my heart beats so loud
it disintegrates my might
 
my heart beats so loud
it blinds my sight
 
my heart beats so loud
i can't tell wrong from right
 
my heart beats so loud
i decided to ...........
 
(to be continued)

heart in control

finally did it
i fooled myself
the irony is
i'm the one
who revealed it
to me
 
finally it came
the point of breaking down
the irony is
it was scheduled
by me
 
my heart held the secrets
my mind couldn't see
 
so i let go of the things
i wanted to keep
 
why am i keeping
those memories that
don't belong to me
 
why am i seeking
the forgiveness that
won't be given to me
 
they say that
there is freedom
in solitary
then why am i
sitting in this invisible prison
......so edgy
 
can't breathe
can't wait
can't do a thing
hopelessness is swallowing me
 
because
my heart took over
and
my mind gave in
 

11 febrero

coolest ways to die

goooooooooooood, haven't updated for more than a year, got no time to write up any crap in here.  it certainly made the past one year seem busy enough, however it's not as meaningful as it is busy.
 
been thinking of some cool ways to die, and i made a list (see how unmeaningful i've been)
 
1.  got sucked into a blackhole, and torn into pieces by the tremendous gravity in a split of second, but i never quite understand how gravity of such magnitude can torn things apart.  and u probably wont even feel the pain, coz pain does take time to travel from ur neuron to ur brain so u realize it.  what's cool about this is that u actually get to be at the blackhole, but u can't see anything, coz there's no light, and probably wont feel anything, coz u'll just disintegrate in a split of second.
 
2.  jump into a pool of liquid nitrogen.  the HOTTEST liquid N2 is about 200 degree celsius below zero, that means -200 C is as hot as it can get. hotter than that, it's gas (of course under 1 atm, i presume).  so what happens when u do jump into a pool of nitrogen is that u got frozen to death instantly.  exactly how instant that is, i don't know, probably a couple seconds.  u also won't feel a thing, coz the cold just numbs u. and u get so stiff so u can be shattered like when a vase hit the ground.

3.  being incinerated at ground zero of a nuclear explosion.  according to various sources, the temperature reaches 10^6 to 10^7 K at ground zero.  at temperature this high, u will literally just disappear, there wont be a dust of u left.
 
i'll think of some more....
 
 

02 enero

time

what is time?
 
ever since mankind came into existance, people have been seeking the answer to this very question.  it's ironic that time has been passing by us for thousands of years, yet non has the answer to what it is.
 
look it up in the american heritage dictionary, time is difined as "a nonspatial continuum blar blar balr".
 
einstein thought differently, he brought the word "space-time" into this world suggesting time and space are a unity, time has everything to do with space.  time, as we now understand it, wouldn't exsit without space.  but the question is this can a space exist without time??  if so, i wish it could happen right now.
 
i've been always waitin for some genius to solve the mystery of time and space, but for the time being, all i wish for is to stop the time.  well maybe stoppin it is too demanding.  i guess i'll settle if it could just slow down a bit, for seperation is at hand and reunion is still too far away, even if when it happens things will have changed.
 
it won't ever be the same........
 
i guess it's already changed.......
12 octubre

i am not afraid of getting old...

i'm not afraid of getting old.
 
it's getting old yet achieving nothing that scares me.